Lately, I’ve been asking myself, “Where do I go from here?” or, “What do I DO with my life?” Sadly, I haven’t found an answer to either of these questions.
I would love to get a job. The only setback, no car. Without a car, I can’t get to a job. Without a job, I can’t get a car. I’m basically screwed. And even if I had wanted to start college at the community college in town next semester, I wouldn’t even be able to do that. Again, no car.
At times, I feel like such a failure. However, I do think not being able to go to college this year was a blessing in disguise. The few short weeks I was there, I realized I was NOT ready for that. My whole life, I couldn’t wait to get away from everything and everyone. When it finally came, I found myself wanting to go back home. That was all I could think about. I need to grow up a little more before even attempting college again. If I ever do.
I need some kind of sign. Some kind of direction.
